Finally, Done

shaken up by this world of hate
losing faith in us a little more these days
these politicians thrive on all your pain
its a shame we can't change til its far too late
step out of bounds and go find yourself,
it feels a lot like surviving in hell.
but i can't give up on humanity
when theres war in your mind called insanity
love life all day til i forget who i am
And another sad loss too soon of a friend,
drank a fifth to myself and i got a little buzz,
ended passed out and lost any feeling of love.
wake up with pain and the shakes everyday.
why did i do this to myself again,
i hate to be the pessimistic human being
but whats it all worth when there is nothing left to believe

for a moment tho, ill get so drunk
that it all seems ok, deep down i know
this world is hardly worth living for
I'm always changing every day,
feeling lost, and out of place.
i plan to exit all alone into an all inclusive dead existence

dig me out of this cloud of angst
im the only one around whos left here to hate.
while friends move onward i still remain
a stubborn kid, as the years pass by like days,
it seems the gods have forsaken me
floating up to a spirtitual awakening,
then coming down like i've lost the whole meaning of life
pretending nothing is wrong but im losing the fight
tried to clean up from every vice that i love.
But The feeling is numbed from all the confusion
with all hope lost theres no love and no trust.
i wish id known what was better for us.
i keep fucking up, down a spiral path
Any real connection that I have don't last
i just need to bring in some light.
and finally meet a few friends before i dematerialize.

when everything seems inconvenient
and the whole worlds against you breathing,
can't even live decent
or make any fucking wages worth saving
just hating what you'll become if you stay,
another rotting sheep in a cage
just fucking leave.
live free,
it doesn't matter what other fucking people think
we're broken down and judged
all based on nothing but the cover
it may take a lifetime or two to truly find who you are inside
thats the game of life, a struggle to survive
fuck tomorrow, live for today.
be the human being you're supposed to be